Sunday, September 30, 2007
girls these days have no fucking shame.
firstly they sleep around. who the fuck do yu take after? yur mother didnt sleep around did she? so why the difference? never learn from yur mother eh? or did she so encourage yu and tell yu, " go ahead dear, sleep with any tom, dick or harry. "
secondly, for god's sake. love making is suppose to be an art. not some cheap sleazy act. so why degrade it. god told yu to sleep around before marriage eh? did he also say it was okay to sleep around wid other people's partners? why dont yu sleep with yur cousin's husband then? or yur best fren's bff. not like yu havent snatched any guy away before right?
men dont sleep around because they have a choice or because they can. they sleep around because sluts like you give them the opportunity to.go to any committed guy and pull up yur skirt and say, im FOC, and they'd probably cheat. even gandhi would have. except gandi wouldnt have slept wid yu. yu're too ugly. here yu win hands down girl. he was so blinded by lust he slept with Y O U.
so yu dont care if yu're forgiven eh. yeah, why would someone like yu with absolutely no morals or conscience be bothered. yu're gg to hell whether yu're forgiven or not.
and why would yu care what we think. i mean, DUH. we're only gg to be here for a short while arent we. come probably friday, or maybe the 13th, yu'd have slept with someone else's love and they yu'd have to deal with new critisisms and words filled with hatred. so why bother with this when yu've obviously moving on?
its not a matter of choice. it's a matter of why of all people YOU? the reason is still you. but yu dont get it do yu? expected.
so yu say he wanted to forget his gff and to lie. yeah right. forget his gff, what yu gg to replace love now? who're yu trying to kid? i agree, they do have an option to climb into bed. they also have the possibility of wanting a place to sleep the alcohol off. yu were just some cheap gift that came along. like those dirty towels yu use when yu've got no choice. and yu leave it at the hotel and not take it home. get it?
yu say they have responsibilities, commitments and promises with the gff. yu have a reponsibility too. a responsibility to not sleep around. and especially not sleep around with someone who doesnt belong to yu. but yeah, kinda forgot. yu never learnt that did yu. dont blame yurself. i mean, look at the other dames from yur schl. pretty much like yu eh.
oh i can guess how yu do know a selected handful who stay true. probably thought yu weren't good enough eh?
did he beg yu to stay or leave? double-check cause i presume yu were drunk.
yu actually had enough shame to hang around after that?
obviously he met yu after midnight. duh. yu see, the gff that he kept was the one who obviously he wants to be with. and thus she's of better character. when she goes off and he's stuck with nothing to do, he chose to use yu as entertainment. dont yu see, yu were nothing but a toy. yu know like people pass street performances, watch them perform, throw a couple of coins and then carry on.
when love goes everywhere, everywhere yu go will have love's memoirs.
aww, yu got yur heart broken? that's so sad.
yu'd actually have time to sharpen yur knives? i would have thought yu wouldnt even know cause yu were too busy having yur way with someguy. letting someguy have his way with you.
mind yu, there were no insult or rants. in fact we kept pretty quiet about this whole issue. but look who's itching for a fight and being immature and not wanting things to settle peacefully. it's like smashing glasses over and over so there will be chaos. why the sudden confession?
are yu feeling guilty?
yu dont see the picture. he might have chosen to cheat. he might have been confused. but in the end, it's still yu who lost out. he's still the gentlemen, and the eligible bachelor, maybe with one or two skeleton in his closet. but he still is perfect to the gff. and he chose her over yu. even if for a min he got confused and went to yu, he came back didnt he?
and who's the one aching for him now?
Saturday, September 29, 2007
im super duper bored at home.
im super duper bored at school.
i dont know which idiiot cursed me.
i seemed to have misplaced my luck.
im gg to go broke.
im lost at what to do.
i can't believe why things go this way.
darn.
why is it a saturday?!
can someone anyone be free please?!
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
loneliness is killing everyone.
oh the things yu do to my heart.
met ashok singh gill.
he's still the same old dumdum.
but i missed him loads though.
went to buka puasa.
i want to let photos do the talking.
some couldnt make it. some joined us late. some stopped by.
so in the end, it was just, nisa, lisa, hid, dee.d and akhtaar left.
and two super nice frens of nisa and lisa who provided us the upcoming photos.
but as usual, everyone left early. then mum started calling and saying im always gg out. so everyone left, leaving just 3 idiiots on the rooftop of vivo with a deck of cards. what else do we do? continue ah. eventually it got late and we left.
im like still ill. i came home. was super hungry. so i got my mum to feed me. and yes it came all out. i cant believe it. i mean my stomach cant be so weak! i guess it's shrinking too much. maybe i should really stick to proper mealtimes. my mum think ive go ulcer or cancer or something like that and insists we go to sgh. how many files do yu want sgh to have for me?! lol. either way, ive got plans today. its time to make some stuff work.
he was super sweet.
stop sending me late night love.
but thanks anyway.
meri rooh talak tu samaayi hai
meri ishq yeh gehrayi hai
mehsoos karu tujhe har lamha
mere ehasaason pe tu chaayi hai
betaabi ka voh aalam hai
tere dard mein hi chain aata hai
tera chain bada bedardi hai
voh dekhe sukun tadpaata hai
sometimes confusion hits yu full swing.
sometimes joy as well.
and then yu realise
some friends are blood.
and blood is thicker than alcohol.
and then yu put the past behind.
yu forget all the horrible stuff yu heard
yu stand up to regain faith
and the storm doesnt seem that scary anymore.
the best?!
i dont want to get started.
i want to bid this goodbye.
its too early for anything.
and i ought to catch up on sleep.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
i plan to stay awake til 5 am.
which means currently i got about 7 hours to go.
lets say i clean my room for 2 hours.
maybe 3.
i'd still have 4 hours left.
lets say i start after chilling for about 2 hours.
i'd have 2 hours left.
lets say i watch a movie for that 2 hours.
then id be able to sleep through the day.
har.
look at my elaborate plans.
im gg to do it darlin.
went to jw.
went to je.
went to ikea.
or so it seems.
went to pool.
went to gamble.
lol.
met kamal.
lol.
and i was wid rihanna all the way.
the bitch imitators.
omg, yu have friendster?
lol. super duper suprised.
i dont know why,
im probably imagining stuff,
even hallucinating,
but i see an elaborate change.
i mean, yu're no longer a racist
or religionist, whatever it's called.
yu're super duper nice to me.
yu mumble stuff that i dont catch
but seems like something that puts me in a dilema.
wtf. i'm confused
i still love yur golden eyes which sparkle.
yur smile tat never fails to chase the blues away.
yur touch that lingers forever.
and those littlelittle idiiotic things that piss me off.
in a pleasant way that is.
naad must stay awake.
but im so super duper sleepy.
Thursday, September 20, 2007
i thought sleep was the answer to all problems.
but prayer is.
these wierd dreams.
i want the picture.
everytime i hear the calling bird
i remember malik.
2 more weeks.
i'm still the good friend i was.
yu're just too blind to see it now.
i always thought i found the perfect guy.
he's only perfect because i let him be.
and she still sits by the stars and wishes hard.
papers finally over.
gambled.
after schl at bb poly pitstop.
raza, akhtaar, lisa, nisa, hid.
that's it. i think i'd bring atm card to schl.
and start gambling in school itself.
go home.
go down wid darlin gamble somemore.
ill.
i wish i was better already.
later, if darlin's sleeping habits permits,
we'd go IKEA!!
yeah yeah!!
i dont know why i'm up so early.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
and she forces herself to cry,
cause she believes she'd eventually run out of tears.
she don't need you to love her,
just let her love you.
if you're lucky, love presents itself to you,
don't close your eyes, shield your heart,
and turn your back to it sweetheart.
and if i don't get love,
i guess it will be just me and bob.
it doesn't matter if they burn it during that month.
it's a matter of respect.
it's religious harmony at stake.
i'm quite a pleasure to have around.
the wheels of luck are turning.
i guess they're unfortunately on reverse mode.
you can die from suffocation.
but you can't die by holding your breath.
so it's been fun. no the exams are yet to end. but i've already been starting to prepare to party. met ashok. biatch. i wonder if he really did what he said he was gg to do. i dont want a birthday present next year. pooled ystd. met up with sathish accompanied by shawn, vasanthan and jonathan.
yes, jonathan. this guy i have to mention. he's a total, okay im lost for words. gem? omg, he's super funny. super cute. and super adorable. he's gay btw, har. no i'm kidding. but he is having a thing for shawn and sathish. and not to forget vasan. lol. he's darn hilarious. wid his antics of mischief. together, he, sathish and shawn make up this group of kids, like primary school boys, eager to play pranks. lol. well im glad they all are good friends. and i think the 3 of them compliments each others. im sure i and vasan had our jaws aching. serious. im not sure about vasan. but i think my jaws still hurt. gosh yu three. idiiots.
so i got back. only to get confused. yu're so darn unpredictable. why cant yu just be one person instead of so many? yu put me in such a state of turmoil. i dont know what yu want. i dont know what yu do. i dont even know what yu say.
econs was a breeze. duh i slept through it. after attempting what i could ah. but i certainly caught up on sleep. lepak wid hid, dee.d, nisa and her friend, whose name i wierdly feel i know but cant remember. so yeah, we believe in fasting. all the way. =)
and then, there was all those emo shit. yu asses. i tell yu the world isnt so nice. so start being cunning babes.
i hope yur dreams come true.
then went to outram. malik another one.
malik. yu and yur ghost stories.
then went to my neighbour's house.
then went to play pool wid fiza.
ate. a very expensive dinner btw. it wasn't worth it i said. but yu paid. so i hope yu enjoyed it. i enjoyed my food. i always do.
then we resorted to our fave pastime.
gambling.
yu see what my brother and sister-in-law teach me. =)
i keep forgetting when im supposed to go out wid who. im forgetting dates as well. sorry! we'll remind me one day before. next time.
i need to go IKEA, darn. but first i need to clean my room. that will be after i go bbdc. which is after i go bb for lunch. which is after i get my hpp.
gosh. i have so too much to do.
wednesday, can't yu hurry here?
Saturday, September 15, 2007
a pirate stands at the edge of the world
should it move forward into the unknown
or should it turn back and face its deepest fears
maybe it should just stand there and think about its beloved.
too many deaths for me to deal with.
how now yur wife?
how yur parents?
i'd be at a funeral tmr.
oh yeah,
happy birthday sweetheart.
Friday, September 14, 2007
reminiscence of the past
that i thought would actually last.
those uncomfortable silences
been mugging.
or at least most people think so.
selamat berbuka.
eid mubarak always brings joy.
people should stop saying,
must fast ah?!
and start saying,
yeah! fast ah!
dont want anything dont want ah.
relief my burden
wait ah wait.
november 30 not very far
cheebeh exams last so long
every day sit at home.
go down at 1030.
lepak lepak lepak.
no life sia we all.
sigh, these stupid exams.
toys for the little devils.
tired of waiting and waiting for events.
and people keep stealing my lollipop ah.
[ sign from above. sign from above. ]
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
my mom's trying to force breakfast down me. seriously i think these radio stations should stop talking and just play songs. cause the more they preach on the importance of breakfast, the more im forced to have it. so the minute my mom turns her back, it's feeding time for the birds. breakfast makes yu lazy. it fills yur tummy early in the morn, when yu're alrdy sleepy. then when yu board that long busride to work or schl, the air con and gentle rhythm just puts yu to sleep. and when yu wake up unexpectedly just before yur stop, yu end up sleepy the whole day. and yeah, how come people who sleep on the bus always wake up before their's stop?
and yes, my mom also believes in several magicwater. namely, brands chicken essence.
lets see if it gets me through econs. i so wanna get out of MI. i just wish they'd agree for once.
rest in peace.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
" alcohol consumption has significant health benefits-
lower risk of heart attack;
lower risk of diabetes;
lower risk of Alzheimer's Disease;
reduced risk of stroke;
and increase in overall longevity.
if consumed in moderation that is. "
feeling random. obsessed over the driving instructor-OMG, he's so hot!
mummy's gg to be proud of me. ive been cooking food for myself this whole week, well most of the meals anyway. ive been home! =) and ive finally cut my nails. and im cleaning my room. can yu believe it. i guess im probably sick and tired of waking up in the middle of the night to sneeze.
teenagers these days. seriously. yu should take a look at em. i saw this girl the other day, who came to send her friend off at the bus stop, dressed in a tube, and one of the shortest skirt i've ever seen. she might as well just come naked for god's sake. and what a profound sense of vocabulary she chose to exhibit. and yes, she was wearing killer heels. okay, maybe yu're gg out aft tat, but dressed like tat? and the best part, she was barely 1413. they were talking abt her turning 14 in oct. oh my. kids these days.
i'm pretty proud about how i turned out now.
Saturday, September 08, 2007
too busy obsessing over him
to blog about puny issues.
here's to the biatch,
ashok singh gill
who got new tattoos widout me.
i miss yu dum.dum.
and yes, im cleaning my room. =)
when will all these be over?
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
fiza going to blog!! blogging!!
like finally.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
i could stay awake just to hear you breathing
watch you smile while you are sleeping
while you're far away and dreaming
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender
i could stay lost in this moment forever
every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure
i don't wanna close my eyes
i don't wanna fall asleep
cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't wanna miss a thing
cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't wanna miss a thing
lying close to you feeling your heart beating
and i'm wondering what you're dreaming
wondering if it's me you're seeing
then i kiss your eyes
and thank God were together
i just want to stay with you in this moment forever
forever and ever
i don't wanna close my eyes
i dont wanna fall asleep
cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't wanna miss a thing
cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't wanna miss a thing
i don't wanna miss one smile
i don't wanna miss one kiss
i just wanna be with you
right here with you, just like this
i just wanna hold you close
feel your heart so close to mine
and just stay here in this moment
for all the rest of time
i don't wanna close my eyes
i don't wanna fall asleep
cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't wanna miss a thing
cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't wanna miss a thing
i don't wanna close my eyes
i don't wanna fall asleep
cause i'd miss you baby
i don't wanna miss a thing
cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't wanna miss a thing
i don't wanna close my eyes
i don't wanna fall asleep
i don't wanna miss a thing
so we had the rom.
it went well i guess.
i want those pictures!
Monday, September 03, 2007
still unbelieving.
